Dream Fight

I’ve been told to myself once “As more you dream and believe, sooner it will come true” I just wanna know how sooner is that and why do I still have to face the hard ways of life while awaiting for the dream to come true!

I feel good when I dream but…What if! What if all of my dreams won’t become true? What if I don’t get the chance to meet all these friends of mine around the world? What if… all my dreams are just simply gone and I won’t be able to chase them?

I don’t wanna thing like this but… I am. But why? Why I’m asking why and I can’t figure the answer for this question… I’ve always dream, always! And now I dream but seem like it doesn’t matter because for some reason I feel it won’t become true… No matter how much I fight this dream I want seem just too far away for me… I want to believe like this “Yes I can do it! It will become true! I’ll go there! I’ll meet them! I’m sure!” but I can’t… There’s some sour of negative aura in turn of me that makes me thing negatively… but I guess… There are more positive thing I know then negative ones… I have my nee-sama Monica-san, Ookami-san, my “wife” Akari, Kana-san, Nomo-san, Moemi-san, Suzu-san, Mandy-san, Ritsu-san, Kim-san, and the others who are so important to me as IF they were family to me… I guess I can say they are, even if is just my imagination and they don’t thing like this of me…

I really think they are very cool and nice, even if is just me thinking this I tell it from the bottom of my heart, seriously and meaning it!

Then the Band! My salvation, in a way of speaking… I was, and I still am, a very depressive girl but… hearing that band, that beautiful and powerful voice of Miku-san made me realize it! Yes I can make my dreams come true, I just have to believe in that, fight for what I want and believe and I’ll get my reward… The dreams come true!

AnCafe to me is the Light that made happy again, that music, that powerful energy of every single member, Kanon-san, Yuuki-san Miku-san, Teruki-san, takuya-san and even Bou-kun… They made me happy just with their songs, this for a person like me is… Strangely impossible! I can’t get happy easily… I’m difficult to put happy when I’m down… Really… Very hard to put me happy again…

So I have to thank them for meeting the one I’ve mentioned earlier, without them I’d never met such nice people, Thank you so much, and also thank them for showing me that it’s not impossible to get what we want if we fight for it… I’ve learn this with Miku-san, I wanna thank to him one day personally!

I think that, now, if I want something I’ll have to fight for it!

And what do I want now? Meet them all! Live in Japan! Learn Japanese! BE SOMEONE! I want them to be my friends for life!!